Amelia@Strawberrybaby
CN Session: 1/500 2S
The first time I met Amelia was on a dim afternoon, in a room where the light seemed already half withdrawn from the world.
I pushed the door open with a box of desserts in my hand. I remember feeling nervous, and faintly ridiculous. After all, this was only a meeting arranged well in advance. The time, the place, the price — everything had been made almost offensively clear. And yet, the moment she appeared behind the door, I was seized by an illusion so misplaced it was almost comic: that I had not come for a transaction at all, but to meet a lover I had not seen in years.
She was wearing the red-and-black plaid miniskirt from her photos. It was short, bright, almost girlish, and in the dimness of the room it looked even less real. She took the desserts from me, smiled softly, and thanked me. There was a trace of coffee in that smile, and also a kind of practiced tenderness. Before I could decide what to say next, she had already slipped an arm around my neck and kissed me.
The kiss came sooner than I had expected. More boldly, too. More naturally.
When Murakami writes about the danger of certain adult intimacies, the danger is not necessarily that they are violent or feverish. It is that they arrive too smoothly. So smoothly that one forgets there ought to be boundaries. One forgets the great indifferent world outside the door. One forgets that, inside the room, time has already begun to cost money. Amelia leaned into me, warm, soft, fragrant. It was almost exactly the presence of a lover, and more convincing than the closeness of many lovers I had actually known.
I was lit up almost at once. Flustered, I pulled her into my arms, kissing her as we stumbled deeper into the room.
Of course, she knew. She knew when men became nervous, when they became impatient, when a small gesture of initiative was enough to make them surrender judgment altogether. She knew how to take my urgency and turn it, without seam or explanation, into desire. She did not need to justify anything. She did not need a prelude. All she had to do was close the distance, soften her eyes, and place her body at precisely the right point. Then a paid afternoon could begin to resemble a reunion after a long separation.
Looking back, it was laughably foolish.
But in matters of desire, I have never been especially intelligent.
The room was dark, the curtains drawn tight. The city had been sealed outside. What remained was Amelia’s breath as she drew near, the faint friction of sheets, and the increasingly heavy sound of my own heart. Amelia was petite, but her body had an unmistakable fullness to it. That contrast was enough to unsettle one’s sense of proportion. In the low light, her curves seemed soft and abundant; when she came close, they carried an almost brutal comfort. It was not love, but it was more immediate than much of love. It was not tenderness, but it could make a man sink more readily than tenderness often does.
I kissed her, held her, touched her, and, lost in the moment, buried my face against the softness of her chest, shaking my head there with a kind of childish helplessness. Amelia responded naturally, neither shy nor theatrical. There was experience in her response, and restraint as well. She knew how to make a man believe he was needed, even if that need had been granted only sixty minutes of legal existence. From time to time she would lift her eyes toward me, half-open and hazy, a smile hidden inside them, as though she were watching my reaction and, at the same time, genuinely surrendering to the moment.
At first, I could not tell the difference.
Later, I no longer wished to.
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The first time I met Amelia was on a dim afternoon, in a room where the light seemed already half withdrawn from the world.
I pushed the door open with a box of desserts in my hand. I remember feeling nervous, and faintly ridiculous. After all, this was only a meeting arranged well in advance. The time, the place, the price — everything had been made almost offensively clear. And yet, the moment she appeared behind the door, I was seized by an illusion so misplaced it was almost comic: that I had not come for a transaction at all, but to meet a lover I had not seen in years.
She was wearing the red-and-black plaid miniskirt from her photos. It was short, bright, almost girlish, and in the dimness of the room it looked even less real. She took the desserts from me, smiled softly, and thanked me. There was a trace of coffee in that smile, and also a kind of practiced tenderness. Before I could decide what to say next, she had already slipped an arm around my neck and kissed me.
The kiss came sooner than I had expected. More boldly, too. More naturally.
When Murakami writes about the danger of certain adult intimacies, the danger is not necessarily that they are violent or feverish. It is that they arrive too smoothly. So smoothly that one forgets there ought to be boundaries. One forgets the great indifferent world outside the door. One forgets that, inside the room, time has already begun to cost money. Amelia leaned into me, warm, soft, fragrant. It was almost exactly the presence of a lover, and more convincing than the closeness of many lovers I had actually known.
I was lit up almost at once. Flustered, I pulled her into my arms, kissing her as we stumbled deeper into the room.
Of course, she knew. She knew when men became nervous, when they became impatient, when a small gesture of initiative was enough to make them surrender judgment altogether. She knew how to take my urgency and turn it, without seam or explanation, into desire. She did not need to justify anything. She did not need a prelude. All she had to do was close the distance, soften her eyes, and place her body at precisely the right point. Then a paid afternoon could begin to resemble a reunion after a long separation.
Looking back, it was laughably foolish.
But in matters of desire, I have never been especially intelligent.
The room was dark, the curtains drawn tight. The city had been sealed outside. What remained was Amelia’s breath as she drew near, the faint friction of sheets, and the increasingly heavy sound of my own heart. Amelia was petite, but her body had an unmistakable fullness to it. That contrast was enough to unsettle one’s sense of proportion. In the low light, her curves seemed soft and abundant; when she came close, they carried an almost brutal comfort. It was not love, but it was more immediate than much of love. It was not tenderness, but it could make a man sink more readily than tenderness often does.
I kissed her, held her, touched her, and, lost in the moment, buried my face against the softness of her chest, shaking my head there with a kind of childish helplessness. Amelia responded naturally, neither shy nor theatrical. There was experience in her response, and restraint as well. She knew how to make a man believe he was needed, even if that need had been granted only sixty minutes of legal existence. From time to time she would lift her eyes toward me, half-open and hazy, a smile hidden inside them, as though she were watching my reaction and, at the same time, genuinely surrendering to the moment.
At first, I could not tell the difference.
Later, I no longer wished to.
---
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